On What Basis??

Assalamualaikum wbt...

My dearest friends, my dearest akhawat...

Alhamdulillah, all praise to Allah, that has created me...

and grant me with His endless mercy and blessings...

Just now..

I was informed by my beloved friend, that...

Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah, that again He has grant me with another blessing...

It is something that I really, badly, terribly, seriously, deadly want!! And Allah has helped me...

Thanks Ya Allah...Thanks...

But, as I am happy, I am also wondering something..

Why do I really, badly want to go there?

On what basis am I having this enthusiasm?

Is it because of Allah?

Or is it just simply because it's my ambition since I am just a little girl...

Wow...

Hurm...

I am speechless right now...

I don't know what should I say...

I...just don't have the answer...

I...

Admit that...

I'm wrong...

My intention isn't purely for Him....

Oh Allah..

Forgive me...

Forgive me...

Forgive me...

=(

Allah...don't leave me..

I neeed You...